It all feels too familiar and maybe it is, because this feeling in your heart is something that you can’t simply forget. Even though I can forget memories, I just can’t seem to forget this familiar feeling of a million stabs in my chest, in my heart. I’d like to think that from all the pain and heartbreaks that I have overcome in the past, that this time it would be easier and less painful.
But it happened again and as much as I’d like to say that it is easier, it really isn’t. The pain that you get in your heart is something that you can’t control, it isn’t controlled by your mind and that is something that I had to realise and come to terms with. The feeling you get in your heart is not logical and it is not something that you can often find a reason for. It just happens. Just like love and heartbreak, it just happens. Although it doesn’t get easier, the way you handle it can certainly make it easier. This time, although the emotional pain hurt just as much as every other heartbreak, I can say that I am in a much better state of healing than I ever have been. This time, I realised that I didn’t completely lose myself and I think the reason why it takes so long for many people to heal is because they often lose who they are. They forget who they were before they met the person who broke their heart. They forget how they used to act and they forget how to survive alone. I guess, through this heartbreak I learnt how strong I really have become and how the best thing after a heartbreak is to just get up and move on. To realise a heartbreak is actually the start of something new and that it only gets better from here. One thing that always gets me through my hard times in life is realising that, if this is what I call an ‘all time low, then it can only go up from here‘. You may be sad right now and you may feel as if you have no purpose to live on. But that’s just your mind trying to find a reason for the pain that you’re feeling in your heart, but it’s not logical and it’s not real. Trust that things will get better and that a heartbreak is not necessarily a bad thing, think of it as a new beginning, a chance to improve yourself and a chance to change your life to the way you want it to be.
Never let a heartbreak break you, always look forward and never back.