Why am I the one who has to suffer?

When someone you love leaves you, they don’t just leave you physically, but they leave you with hurt, pain and suffering. I don’t know if they are also in pain, but all I know is that they leave without any hesitation, and leave you to suffer alone. In my opinion, it is absolute bullshit. I refuse to be the one who suffers long after you’re gone. It’s not fair and it’s not right.

Why am I the one who feels sad that you are gone? why am I the one who misses you? why am I the one who feels lonely? why am I the one who wants you back into my life even though you have done me wrong? and why aren’t you the one to feel all of that?

As much as I know that I am the only one who misses what we had, I still can’t help myself but to feel the pain in my chest. All I can tell myself is to stop feeling all of this, because I know you are doing just fine without me and I know that you have moved on without any hesitation at all. I am the only one suffering from your mistakes, from you leaving me. It’s not fair, but I can’t do much about it..all I can do is keep telling myself that the only one suffering is myself, so just move on.

 

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